It’s been one complete revolution, one complete overturn of the mother Earth. Being a special day my soul vociferate to write something which is always there deep inside the heart. After much anticipation and strenuous efforts , certain words came out …. Everything around me changes beyond recognition but I’m still stuck at a phase in the course of life. Sometimes it feels like it’s the most difficult hurdle to jump over, the other time it feels like nature is giving me enough space and time for self realization. Indeed “ Light travels through time and space “ Back in those days when my home was in desert, like the harsh desert sunrays, which makes mankind chaotic and anxious … my words sharper than Robin Hood’s arrow pierced and hurt closed ones . Was it the quality of a short-tempered reactionist ???
The journey from Thar Desert to the dense green mountains make me realize that life has transgressed far beyond from the start point characterized by the innocent smiles, laughter and sinlessness. The culprits …. WRONG EVALUATIONS, SAD CALCULATIONS, UNNECESSARY WITCH LIKE QUICK REACTIONS which could have been avoided . Now that I live among the chirping birds, among the green being enchanted by viridity …. the tranquility comes out and slowly the mind finds solace in lonesomeness remembering the most precious and the most valuable thing of my life . My chest is so numb and it feels like the heart is gonna burst out . Feeling like a real criminal but this criminal has a soul and heart unsullied by sin.
Comprehending everything as a well deserved punishment, the soul sighs every now and then. Sometimes the mere mind oppugns the heart …. Doesn’t the punishment have a time period ?? Wandering in the streets where raindrops scatter like memories, like stories older than these memories, COLD REALITY never leave me . There is no words to describe the maelstrom deep inside .
It changes a lot of things , things that seem unchangeable. Am I being affected or is this the maturity built with the passage of time and changing circumstances of life ??? This scar now transmutes into a beautiful mark of LOYALTY forever and ever and for eternity . Time halted that moment when that precious thing, where these beautiful memories revolves around, sat on a lump of thick cloud and flew away. From that moment onwards life is like those of a refugee and landless souls’ lives .. Sometimes my selfish brain asked if the culprit was the casual attitude or my weak heart ??? …. If there was ever our dream or self created dream ???…. If the dream was self destroyed ??? But all I know is for every mistake there is always a punishment , if sorrows are destined in fate then it’s avoidance is impossible . As the tears have reached the threshold of eyelids, they possess the right to come rolling down . Slowly and steadily hopeless self stabilizes . It seems so helpless and all the heart could do is to remember and miss SUNSHINE . Today these feelings couldn’t be hidden which the mind has been trying hard for so long, they cry out loud to me that they can’t live without their sunshine and that they can’t love anyone else. Even if these feelings become like black ashes, it waits for the SUNSHINE and will always wait …..
I would have been happier and more beautiful if I could get all your sorrows . Wish all your tears come into my eyes and I would feel blessed .This existence is almost null and void without the sunshine …. Be it the pain ! be it the cure, it’s the same because it’s you SUNSHINE . The world bothers and questions me every now and then …. Is it wrong to live life by a code and an ethos?? . Wondering ! When will be the END OF THIS PUNISHMENT ???