It’s been one complete revolution, one complete overturn of the mother Earth. Being a special day my soul vociferate to write something which is always there deep inside the heart. After much anticipation and strenuous efforts , certain words came out …. Everything around me changes beyond recognition but I’m still stuck at a phase in the course of life. Sometimes it feels like it’s the most difficult hurdle to jump over, the other time it feels like nature is giving me enough space and time for self realization. Indeed “ Light travels through time and space “ Back in those days when my home was in desert, like the harsh desert sunrays, which makes mankind chaotic and anxious … my words sharper than Robin Hood’s arrow pierced and hurt closed ones . Was it the quality of a short-tempered reactionist ???
The journey from Thar Desert to the dense green mountains make me realize that life has transgressed far beyond from the start point characterized by the innocent smiles, laughter and sinlessness. The culprits …. WRONG EVALUATIONS, SAD CALCULATIONS, UNNECESSARY WITCH LIKE QUICK REACTIONS which could have been avoided . Now that I live among the chirping birds, among the green being enchanted by viridity …. the tranquility comes out and slowly the mind finds solace in lonesomeness remembering the most precious and the most valuable thing of my life . My chest is so numb and it feels like the heart is gonna burst out . Feeling like a real criminal but this criminal has a soul and heart unsullied by sin.
Comprehending everything as a well deserved punishment, the soul sighs every now and then. Sometimes the mere mind oppugns the heart …. Doesn’t the punishment have a time period ?? Wandering in the streets where raindrops scatter like memories, like stories older than these memories, COLD REALITY never leave me . There is no words to describe the maelstrom deep inside .
It changes a lot of things , things that seem unchangeable. Am I being affected or is this the maturity built with the passage of time and changing circumstances of life ??? This scar now transmutes into a beautiful mark of LOYALTY forever and ever and for eternity . Time halted that moment when that precious thing, where these beautiful memories revolves around, sat on a lump of thick cloud and flew away. From that moment onwards life is like those of a refugee and landless souls’ lives .. Sometimes my selfish brain asked if the culprit was the casual attitude or my weak heart ??? …. If there was ever our dream or self created dream ???…. If the dream was self destroyed ??? But all I know is for every mistake there is always a punishment , if sorrows are destined in fate then it’s avoidance is impossible . As the tears have reached the threshold of eyelids, they possess the right to come rolling down . Slowly and steadily hopeless self stabilizes . It seems so helpless and all the heart could do is to remember and miss SUNSHINE . Today these feelings couldn’t be hidden which the mind has been trying hard for so long, they cry out loud to me that they can’t live without their sunshine and that they can’t love anyone else. Even if these feelings become like black ashes, it waits for the SUNSHINE and will always wait …..
I would have been happier and more beautiful if I could get all your sorrows . Wish all your tears come into my eyes and I would feel blessed .This existence is almost null and void without the sunshine …. Be it the pain ! be it the cure, it’s the same because it’s you SUNSHINE . The world bothers and questions me every now and then …. Is it wrong to live life by a code and an ethos?? . Wondering ! When will be the END OF THIS PUNISHMENT ???
One fine day I was watching Secretly Greatly – Covertness and came across the Korean folk song ‘Imjingan’ and Im instantly mesmerized by the song since then . The Lyric was written by Pak Se-Yeong (1902-1989), born in Kyeonggi-do, the most populous province in South Korea and Ko Jong Hwang composed the music. Later on Se-Yeong became famous as the writer of Democratic People’s Republic of Korea’s national anthem . On further search, I bumped on Japanese remake of the folk song by the Japanese band “The Folk Crusaders”. This beautiful song says :
River Imjin runs freely through north and south but they can’t go back to their homeland. Imjin river of limpid water becomes more tranquil as it flows its path from the lands of the North to the Southern Skies. That’s how the birds fly as “Messengers of Freedom”. It asks who it was that tragically divides the homeland and the divine river to bring a rainbow in the sky . It pleads Imjin to please flow on, take their heart home and take care of it until then …. It pleads river Imjin to tell them about the tearful longing to visit home. No matter what happen the thought of their homeland will forever stay in their heart ………..
The beautiful song gradually and eventually becomes an emotional and heart wrenching song for the North Koreans . Because of the lyrics it is a well known forbidden song in North Korea. The totalitarian government must have sensed that the lyric might induce soft corners for Republic of Korea by the North Koreans. But the actual reason is best known to the governing authority of North Korea. The lyric is not only the outcome of the division of the peninsula into two Korea . The Chinese, the Mongols and the Japanese all took away the Koreans as captives and they never get to return to their homeland. The Imjin river unwantedly served as the passage to carry out all the tyranny by many conquerors and crusaders for many centuries and the divine river was the only witness, forcing it to carry bloods wherever it flows and makes courses. Nature makes the river so limpid and its tranquility becomes more refine as it flows since times immemorial. Koreans from both sides of the divided peninsula were being dislodged due to different political thought process .With the passing years, their longing to visit their roots become greater and greater …..
The river flows from North Korea through the Demilitarized Zone and down to South Korea. Many bloodiest battles have been fought there since the last five centuries. Famously known as the “River of dead” as in the past for many centuries and a decade ago during the North Korean famine, thousands of dead bodies floated down. Every time I hear the song, it instills me and I yearn to learn more and more of the tragedies revolving around the divine river. Centuries have passed, decades have passed, and the Southern Peninsula developed beyond the whole world’s astonishment but unfortunately the world might never understand the long lasting impact of the shattering incidents on the Korean people from both the Peninsula, which now stay behind the curtains of development .
PS: Any detail about the wars fought around the divine river is not being written as it might create unwanted comments and controversies. This article is solely written from emotional and sentimental point of view.